♥ The One

2010-07-23T23:23:00.002+08:00

There isnt much things in life recently.

is it so hard for us to text like normal friends?

i never get the chance to talk to him whenever i need him. -,-

lifeless.

i really lost the direction of my life now.

i just want to talk to me whenever im moody.

why am i in love with a guy who doesnt give a fucking care bout his friend??

HELLO, take me as a friend. please.

never ask for more than that.

is it so hard to do so?

its okay if you got crush or not, you see.

i dont really mind that.

im hoping that he will treat me as a friend.

normal friends or maybe close friends that share everything.

the eyes, the kiss, the hugs of the jerk is still so fresh in my mind. fuck.

why is it so hard to forget a pastt???

2010-06-01T17:31:00.000+08:00

PHEI IS BACK IN TOWNNN! wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf!

2010-06-01T17:05:00.000+08:00

2010-03-17T01:08:00.003+08:00

179310-2nd month.

time flies really fast. we had lost em for the 2nd month.

i can feel the painnn. the pain is still around us.

i dont want to forget about this.

i feel the pain. bottom of my heart. it really really hurts.

2010-03-06T22:25:00.002+08:00

6thmarch2010-

time flies, i cant believe that its the 48days they left us.

i wonder why, i was so moody for the past few days. i am moody now.

tomorrow is march 7th and its their 49 days.

i dont know what to say. but im really moody.

since the accident, i couldnt cheer myself up.

this week worst.

i dont know when it started, but i know my mood got worse and worse since monday.

sudah one week..my mood is still the same. no one can cheer me up.

i cried myself to bed every night.

i cant hold back my tears..its hard..really hard..

idk what had happen to me..

i really miss him..

i dont know how to describe my miss-brendon-ness.

its like..too much..

how can i get over it?

when i was young, i read alot of news about teenagers' death. i saw alot of teenagers lost their friends. i felt sad for the friends.

so, i started to have this question in my mind.

what is feels like to lost someone around us.

i even asked my mom once, what is the friends' feelings

i cant believe that it happened to me at the age of 17.

finally i know what is the feeling.

i dont like it. I HATE IT!

I HATE IT ALOT!

oh, God. please be the first and last time. i dont want to lost any of my friends again.

i feel heartache.

no one in this house knows that im moody. I DONT LIKE TO BE MOODY.

I DONT LIKE IT.

but..i just cant control it. i just cant....

R.I.P guys.

i miss you, B! i really do miss you. i dont know how describe how much i miss you but i want to let you know i miss you alot, B. alot!

i can see you smile, i can hear you jokes. but everything was a dream. only a dream.

2010-02-20T00:56:00.002+08:00

190210- a movie day with xiaokah and cousin

i went out the whole week with friends and cousin.

on the 16th feb, i meet up with elmo,chongyik, han boon, ting yik and huimin. =D

later on, xiaokah came =D

on the 17th Feb, this is the first time i hang out with giselle,simone and sean.

and i took a pic with em' . i love the kids. they are nice.

we went to redbox and sean was happy. i can see that.

see B, you got lovely siblings. and i love em'

on18th Feb, went to queens with cousin but the queue is too long so we chose to walk around.

everything happened to suddenly and yeah. i started to accept it.

2010-02-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

11th February 2010- 2 days before New Year Eve.

kids are feeling excited about celebrating CNY. teenagers cant wait for the holidays to come, adults are preparing angpaos for the children.

i heard the sound of firecrackers, i looked out from my window.

something tell me that they are happy too. im listening to the songs that they wrote for em'

this time, we should be planning together where to go, what to do and everything.

this year, 2010, my 17th year will not be a good year.

and, i will not forget about this accident.

we suppose to fight in msn at this time and not writing blog with tears.

everything had became memories. nothing but memories that we can keep it until the day we die.

i miss you, B.

i really do.

i hate the feeling of losing a friend.

a friend that tell me lame jokes, a friend that help me without any complains, a friend that is very nice, a friend that like to tease his friends but he loves em', a friend that what a friend needs.

i really miss you B.

things that you do i still remember. its like just yesterday or maybe an hour ago.

i never know that you are such a great person until the day mum told me that you left everyone of us.

i mean i know. i always know.

you are not just a great person, also a great son, a great student and of course a great friend. =)

i tried real hard to hold back my tears but i cant. whenever im happy, i will think of you.

whenever im down, i will think of you too.

your smile cheers me up all the time. be a kid up there kay?

talk to alvin when you are free, he really miss you. i know he do.

and yeah, i know you can read this. please.

ILY,B =D

2010-01-24T18:19:00.003+08:00

240110- B's birthday.

my mood wasnt alright. but then i got friends who cheer me up. =)

i feel like dying this morning.

i was listening to LeeHom's HeartBeat and i sang while im cleaning my room.

i was sad. i miss him.

i text Mr.Yam. and i asked him to tell me stupid things and hell, he did.

he asked me,

why birds can fly?

Scroll down for answer
(p/s: i dont have to scroll down at all.)

because birds got wings.

he made me speechless but that is what i ask for. something stupid.

i tried not to drop another tear as i promised myself and its B's birthday.

i kept on repeating listening to the song.

i told mrYam and Bug bout something and i feel much better. =)

i still need some time to get the pain outta here.

but i know, i cant.

i mean. its not easy. i know.

im glad that they are doing great up there. RIP people.

people from the land will love and miss you guys.

you guys will not be forgotten =]

yesterday the families had brought their ashes to a new place.

B's at kek lok si.

CHEER, HAZELL. CHEER.

CHEER EVERYONE!

-You live in my heart. Everytime my heart beats, i will think of you. i will not forget about you until the day my heart stop beating. I dont know how to describe how much I miss you. i feel the emptiness after you left but i will be alright. =) Happy Birthday, my dearest friend, Brendon. =D-

ILY, We all love you,Brendon.

Happy Birthday again, my dearest friend

2010-01-23T20:50:00.002+08:00

230110- Day before B's birthday.

my mood wasnt that good since the accident, i thought i will be okay after everyone's funeral.

but i guess i was wrong. im not.

God brought all of em go to a better place, i know.

my mood is weird. totally weird.

everything had changed, friends had left. like what Giselle said, Life must still carry on.

i'm tired. i never know that i was this tired until everything is over.

why i still cant control my emotional??

Brendon, this name never get out of my mind before.

i miss him everyday in school.

i cant feel anything now, im numb.

the pain is still there. my heart is still havent recover.

IM IN PAIN.

i dont know how to describe my pain. it kills!!

Sis B, God had brought you away from us. but i know God will brought you to a better place. be a good kid there right? =)

Happy Birthday in Advance, my dear B.

2010-01-20T06:07:00.002+08:00

190110- Went to B's funeral.

i cried so badly in school today and i cant stop crying.

there's a feeling that i dont know what to say and how to express.

i just cant accept the fact that they are gone.

i cant get to see B's smile and his lame jokes again. i had been crying so badly since the day they went missing.

i know B is listening to us and he is watching us.

i dont want him to be sad. he is a happy go lucky guy.

why God wanna took all those guai kia away and left those mat rempit here in this world.

B left Alvin alone and didnt took the shirt for me.

i cant believe that im attending my friend's funeral.

Alvin says i must change for B. be strong because of B. i should change my attitude for B.

i will Alvin, i will.

going to send B for his last journey tmrw.

R.I.P, Brendon, Jason, Yi Zhang others and teacher.

2010-01-18T22:09:00.002+08:00

180110- Brendon had left us.

I couldn't get myself to bed the night before they found Brendon's body.

I kept on waking up in the middle of the night, checked my phone, hope to receive some messages from friends saying that they found Brendon ALIVE or maybe his body.

i went to school with a pair of swallon eyes.

i had been crying for more than 7 hours. friends started to ask what's going on and i cant control my tears.

i cried in class so badly. i hope i can see him appear in front of me.

i hope he can still call me bro. i cant even get a chance to hear him call me bro again.

Brendon, i cant even get a chance to say thank you in face to face anymore.

Suddenly i miss him so much and there are alot of things that i wanted to tell him.

I pray so hard, everyone pray so hard that God will bring them back safely but no, God didnt brought them back. God brought them along.

I was telling Fze that he will be safe and i got the chance to talk to him and hear him laugh. but everything was just a dream. DREAM. we cant hear his laughter again.

Brendon, we all miss you so much.

i had been so worried and scared bout it when ChingWen told me.

i dont want to lose a friend. i dont want.

but i just did. everyone just did.

the apoms family lost 2 apoms at the same time.

Brendon, why you wanna leave us? i know you for only 6 months and i had been crying for days.

Brendon, can you hear me?

IMY, B.

i miss you calling me bro! i miss you calling me bro!

and God just dont give me another chance to hear it. we all dont have a chance to hear your laughter and your PeterChao's style of talking anymore.

the last message from you was Jan 13th.

you were asking me when can you pass the shirt to me. i replied CNY hols.

but sadly, you made Alvin to get it himself. Brendon...

its his present remember?

R.I.P Brendon.

2010-01-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

150110- second week of school.

school had started for 2 weeks and i was vry busy for the whole week.

when im busy i can stop thinking of him, and i thought i already put him down.

but, when i stop everything, i realise that he is still in my heart.

no matter how busy i am, there is always a time for me to think of him.

until today, i still can see his smile and his features very clearly.

is it because that his everything deeply carved in my heart?

E, i want you back so badly!

160808. i cant forget that moment. i cant. i still love you, E.

2010-01-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

060110- second day of school.

everything went fine in school except for the 5 period of assemble.

urgh wtf.

luckily is my last year sitting in the hall every first assemble of the year, listening the teacher to talk about school rules to us. urgh, its BORING.

now, my school got into new rules. =D

they made a book which all of our school rules will be inside and we need to get both of our parents to sign on it.

which means, if our parents sign and still go to school to cari pasal with teachers means its OUR wrong. as the school-rules book has everything written down inside.wtf right? kinda stupid.

somehow its to prevent stupid parents to bring some unwanted problems to school. urgh.

again, LUCKILY ITS MY LAST YEAR.

gosh.

school is getting worse and worse each year.

cool school dont have remove classes and what my school has? 4 bloody class of removes. for the idiots.

i hate remove class students. not all but most of it. *shakes head*

p/s: i hate form1 students

2010-01-03T17:28:00.002+08:00

030110- fever day. =(

woke up in the early morning, i felt that my body is burning. went to check my temperature and im 37.6 degrees. TT.

school reopen tomorrow and i havent got my exercise books yet! wtf weh!

and i went to clinic just now and the doctor said i got high fever!

i need to take 6 pills and 3 times a day! meanss...

18 PILLS A DAY! ahhhhhhhhhh!

school starts tomorrow and i cant wait to get back to school. <3

010110

2010-01-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

010110- First damn day of 2010.

Another had gone, and guess what. yesterday i was hoping to see that jerk in queens.

i went there with cousin and i couldnt believe that i wore slippers, shorts and Equator's art camp shirt. the worse was i tied up my hair.

And i bumped into a lot of friends which i dont wanna meet either one of em'.

i had tried to avoid em' but they came to talk to me.

i kept both of my eyes on my slippers, pying's eyes, chingwen's boobs, alvin's bag, hao's "dont look down" 's shirt and my phone. i dare not to take a peep at entao bahs! wth.

im so afraid to see him. but thank god, i didnt even see his mother fucker face.

im so down yesterday when im on the way to Queens. HELL

hello, why do i feel this way??

i walked all the way and im hoping to see him but i dont want to see his face! wtf is going on with me?

im f5 now. and things happened when im f3! bloody 2 years! HELLO!

i always thought that i dont like him anymore but what is this? i was crying for him again??

i dont want!

CHNG EUGENE! all thanks to you!

i cant bloody get out of that kind of life.

do you know how much it hurts??

do you know how deep it is?

if theres a chance to be with you, I WANT. please keep it for me.

Happy New Year. 2010

2009-11-24T17:34:00.000+08:00

2009-11-24T16:41:00.004+08:00

I LOVE VANESSA TAN YING HONG! xP

2009-11-24T15:48:00.005+08:00

PILLOW FIGHT 21st Nov 2009.

2009-11-17T09:13:00.002+08:00

After 10 days of exam finally its over. its kinda stress though. Well, after this thursday i need to start prepare for my form5 thing. Time flies. after a month im a 17 year old girl who needs to face SPM and the society soon. i dont feel like studying actually.
Can i stay in secondary school and i dont wanna graduate. its scaryyyyy. urgh. i rather stay inside the school and gossip bout others and let others gossip bout me.
urghhh. i dont know what will happen next year. i wanted to study hard but..i..dont like to study. really. i mean who likes study right? but im in a different case. i dont like books at all. i prefer art. not that kind of drawing type of art. as if, culinary art, photography, hair designer..etc..
if i am a culinary art student, i can cook delicious food with nice design on it. and kitchen will be my second home.
if i am a photographer, i can go around the world to take nice photos back and share with everyone. i got my own freedom, i dont have to work in a place. i am free.
if i am a hair designer, i can design cool hair style for people. and of course, i can have cool hair style too. slowly i will get my own shop, my own business then branch by branch.
i wanted to study IT too but my cousin said it is hard to master it. so forget about it.
i prefer art. i dont wanna work under pressure and only can get that kind of salary. i want to wear OL clothes but i guess...it will never happen..im not OL type of person..
i want freedom. chef? culinary art? photography? hair designer?
which one is better?
i want to be a famous photographer but im lack of gadgets. how am i gonna take nice pics if im lack of gadgets? i can i know. but it will be better if i got higher-end of gadgets.
i want a wide lens, i want a external flash light. daddy, please get me.

-its november now. Nov 2008, i would not be here blogging alone. my phone would not be so silent.i would not be so emo. i would not staring at the monitor and listening to the song alone.i would not drop a tear.Oh dear, i wanted to forget about him. but how...?

2009-11-17T07:47:00.005+08:00

141109; dinner with the bride's family and friends

Morning went over to my couz's house and had a bruch with em'

went back at 2evening and got prepared by 530.

went over to butterworth for a dinner with the bride's family and friends.

counted as a seperated wedding dinner.

picture below was taken on that day. ;]

151109; the actual day of wedding.

woke up at 8 in the morning because i was nervous and i cant sleep. urgh.

slowly get things prepare and went down to my cous's house to wait for the groom to fetch the bride home.

while waiting, my couz and I took a few pictures in the groom's room XD

*honk honk honk*

heard the sound of the honk and they are back!

rushed to take my camera and wait for em at the gate.

the bride and the groom

one of my cousin sis is at Aus and unable to come back for the tea session.

so they on webcam with my Aus cousin sis and pang teh to her. xD

and nowwww. angpao time!

The Dinner at Jade Palace.

In the car, on my way to jade palace. Hehhh

Lastly, congrats to both of you!

2009-11-05T21:55:00.004+08:00

i got something nice to talk about this time. hehhh and the picccccc. just ignore it! XD

stay here, facing the classroom, can't make a single sound, listening to the rain tapping the roof. tippy tappy.

everyone is done with their papers, drawing, staring at something, sleeping and some crazy human like me, "paper-blogging". writing some shit so i can update my blog as fast as possible and as soon as i get home. what a boring day.

*sigh* Form5-ers are leaving the school soon and after few months its my turn to face this stupid SPM thing. urgh. well im turning 17 in next 5 months and guess what, im planning what to do for my birthday. drop some cool parties for only cool people like my buddies and I. P/s: They are awesome and be jealous. xP.

Other than that, i will get my car license soon! car license! car license!

after i graduate, i will miss the smell of the 10-years-or-more old tables,the ugly green curtains, the two old fans, the canteen where i have my not-really-breakfast breakfast,the stinky toilets, the field where we go every week, the library that we use to "hangout" with friends during recess....many more...although i dont really like this school but it gives me a lot of memories. Ah, and not forgetting the sluts and bitches, i will bloody miss them too.

Time flies...*zipped* opps got emo again, oh well, only for 1 paragraph. its been 443 days after he left..and idiotic people like miss care about a jerk. Come on. a jerk! urgh. lets make this paragraphy short and straight to the point. so, as a conclusion, i still do miss him and of course..i do stil love him..like an IDIOT! =D

after writing for 15 mins or more, my stomach is growling, asking for food. Besides that, my eyelids are getting heavier and heavier each time i write a word. IM sleepy. Its raining outside and its frezzing cold! stupid black crow is making an annoying sound. urgh. =.= two more weeks and i can be in my new dresses! how cool. and exam gonna end soon! but today is only the third day of exam. damn it, i got 7 more days to go! =( i hate exam! So, like i said just now, form5-ers are leaving the school soon and im glad that some lalas are getting out of this so-not-cool school. and yeah, i dont have to bring extra glasses to school in case they block my way and break my lens with their digusting and horrible face, ew.

*i slept for half and hour*

im awake! how good if we study by computer? E-education! have exam using computer! we can online. chit chat with friends. we can even on facebook, plurk,twitter, msn, skype,blogspot..etc. at least i dont have to waste my time writing this lame-o thing. IM BORED. well, im aint pourd to be a student of this school. To me, schooling life is tired but it has a positive side too. English form4 literature, Si Tenggang's homecoming taught us about look a thing in different kind of view. So, yeah..school life is boring but having cool friends make out life fantastic!

Besides saying thanks to our friends, im saying thanks to those sluts too, without them my school life wouldnt be that cool. P/s: i never say they are cool. they suck to the max! =)

im making my own school life cooler than others and im enjoying it!

imagine, the first thing i think of everymorning once i open my eyes is YES IM GOING TO SCHOOL AND I GET TO SEE MRD!

when i reach school, YES IM WAITING THE BELL TO RING SO I CAN GET TO SEE MRD.

after recess, waiting the bell to ring, YES I CAN GO HOME NOW AND PLURK AND ON FACEBOOK!

during the night before bed, YES TMRW I CAN GET TO SEE MRD!

its a routine of my life. hahhhh.

see, my school life is fun. i mean FUN!

gossip bout some sluts in school with some friends during recess.

but still...i prefer my friends that are not from my school. they are much cool-er!

hahh.

*end*

i wrote this during having sej exampaper. i got errrr 2 hours doing nothing. so yeah. hehh!

gtg to study noww. Byeeee!

<3.

2009-10-28T19:03:00.002+08:00

28th October 2009;

Due to my lazy-ness, i didnt update my blog for months.

Obviously,im here to update my blog.

On the 16th of Oct, i was invited by Xiang to the BBQ party that organised by him.

he called up and i went down to help him to bring those foods to Gazebo

later on, i waited CYik for half and hour and ended up he went to Gazebo w/ Xiang.

Saw Alvin the Doraemon there. =D

met Chingwen and we went to Gazebo to meet the guys.

later on, Maychee came =]

we had fun. thanks Xiang for inviting us.

Chingwen went back early so left me and Maychee.

i went back after accompany the guys and say bye to Xiang. ;]

Few days ago, i was bored and played with Dad's iPhone. and i came out with this.

*point below*

lalalala, i like it. ;]

27th Oct 2009;

Planned to have a group study w/ Yunne and Celene.

but Celene cant make it so left me and Yunne.

i was sick that day and yeahh. had a very bad cold yesterday. skipped school too. ;]

today went to school but school's having graduation rehearsal, and teachers not teaching. urgh.

slept in the class during account lesson and i had fever. urghhh.

next week is gonna be my final exam and i have started my engines but....idk where to start. =(

438 days. and i still miss him. =(

2009-10-05T17:38:00.002+08:00

So, school started one week ago and i hate school. urgh.

i dont know what to do during the hols and i hate going to school.

i need to cut my hair every month, to keep it short and tidy.

i cant have cool hair like whoever is cool.

i cant wear cool glasses like whoever's glasses is cool.

i wanna have long long long nails so i can scretch those whores' face.=]

i wanna wear shirt and a pants with a heels to school instead of wearing stupid uniform and stupid shoes.

i wanna go shopping instead of having PJ lesson in school.

so at least i wont hurt myself during the stupid lesson.

school are just a place for us to get knowledge nothing much. duhhh.

i hope my dad's rich enough to send me to overseas to further my study.

maybe private school or international school or even home schooling.

sigh. i wanna have sexy long hair like angelina jolie. XD i know its too over.

everyone's hair is hair. whts the different?

after 2 secs, i feel glad to have this friend back.

all the while i thought ive lost this friend of mine.

he texted me just now and asked me to help him something. and the way he talked to me was different. maybe to me but not to others.

i hope he can be more mature and dont be too berterus terang.

anyway, ive stop gossiping about people.=]

not much things for me to gossip about.

well, Whore is always a Whore and FOREVER will be a whore.

do i have to feel depress or angry just because of some whore?

i feel pityful for their parents. seriously i do.

Natural disaster happened these few days.

tsunami, turnado, earthquakes, floods...etcetc.

its scaryy. i dont wanna see people dying.

sigh everything had changed.

skipped school for two days. urghhhhh. i got a very bad backache. =(

lastly, i miss him so badly

2009-09-24T21:39:00.007+08:00

24th Sep 09; School reopening soon! yayyy

On 22nd of Sep, my couz brought me to Ayer Itam Dam for some photoshoots.

we had a great time taking pictures. =]

this is one of em' there are too much to upload here and i dont want people to see to much of my things. ahahahhahaa

Yesterday i played with my tripod stand and... Hehe

The last 2 pics is kinda blurrr, it didnt get the focus point. XD

Be happy, Be childish like me!

anyway, hols's boringggg

2009-09-22T00:44:00.006+08:00

210909- <3

WHEeeeEEeee!

they came over to my house just nowww and we had funnn.

hahhh, im lazy to update my blog recently.

anywayyy, yukee came over at 12pm and after an hour, lmay came. ;]

we talked alot and snap few pictures.

urghhhh.

kinda miss themm. =(

will update more about it when my mood gets better

urghh =(

140909

2009-09-14T22:31:00.001+08:00

14th September 2009; Wan Chee's birthday

Well, nothing special happen recently.

hmmm. only there's few IMMATURE people trying to cari pasal.

Funny, its time to be mature lahh, you guys are 16 dy. duhh

please think things like an adult does.

urghhh, cam cant connect to pc. fuckkkk.

Kinda bz recenly. hehe

MR.D Rocksss!

<3>

2009-09-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

Suddenly feel like writing this.
so yah im here.
this visit taught us alot of things.
and the brothers touched my heart.
let's talk about Ken.
since the first day i knew him until today, he becomes more mature compare to last time.
people changes.
the way the kids play with him, it makes me feel that the kids really like him.
and he is no longer that immature Ken.=]
i dont know how to express but really he changed alot.
its a good thing Ken, you become more mature than last time.
i feel regret for not talking to the brother.
he is 17 years old and he got a brother. and they both are the brothers who touched my heart.
and im planning to go for a visit for the second time.
i can feel that he is sad by his expression when his mom wanted to go back.
i cried for them. im aint being dramatic but really, its sad.
he didnt talk much or even join us to play. well, he is older than me.
maybe he felt that he wasnt belong to our world.
if i can turn back the time, i will talk to him and make him feel happy with us.
so at least he wont feel apart from us.
there's always a chance. so. yahh, i will be going to St Joseph for the second time. ;]

St Joseph orphanage visit.

2009-09-05T16:45:00.035+08:00

050909; a visit to St. Joseph Orphanage with Pcghs's Interactors.

Woke up at 7am, get ready and fetch Hui to my school at 830am.

Reached school and we went there by bus.

the children there are so polite and friendly. sighh.

we brought our unused toys and clothes for them ;]

when we walked in, they greet everyone of us.

see, we dont even greet our parents every morning.

A lot of kids like Ken. idk why.

The perasan.

Crystal and Jia Le

Giselle; Sun
Ken playing with the brothers;

i gerli you

we laugh out loud

HAHAHAHHAHHAH*

dont do my brother anymore uncle Ken!

The kids just love him

Musical chair

can i ask you for a hop?i love you, you love me....

oh oh hazell wanna take pic d*look at the cam

Peaceee

with the 13 years old boy.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeUs. but not all.

the girlsUncle Ken. =] P/s: we both are the special on2 shortays and two menwalking back to the bus

when i was waiting for them, i saw a mother talking to the children.

their mom asked them, have you eaten? and the mom pat on the brother's shoulder after that the mom left them.

im not being dramatic but its really pityful.

you can actually read what is the brother's thinking by looking his expression.

he doesnt wants to be there.

seriously, i felt sad for that.

i tell myself, one day, i will go pay a visit to them again. =D

Pay a visit to the orphanage and we will know that our life isnt that bad.

Lastly, thanks hui for lending me her clothes to wipe off my tears.

<3>

2009-09-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

03 september 09- The presentation

Today, i brought my Cam to school for the presentation. weeee.

my mood isnt good recently. i dont know why.

*sigh.

is it because of him?

im wondering for a year plus and i still cant get my answer.

what's going on with me??

recently i was so bz with my activities and i dont feel like going to chinese orchestra anymore.

its a waste of time there.

im spending most of my time in interact and graduation magazine.

tmrw i need to get my ass back to that stupid activity. damn it.

pekchekk ar.

i still cant get over him! whyyyyyyyyyyy!

HAZELL IS TIME TO LET GO!

My school interact club is going to St Joseph Orphanage this sat with PCGHS's interact. weee.

cant wait. ;]

Hazell's still down

2009-08-31T23:30:00.006+08:00

Suddenly, im down again.

this time, i feel down is because of friendship.

i saw those pictures that taken in my house, with Alex, Lee, Vincent, Herh, Hui, Jo, Jian, Eric.

all of us grow up every second.

and i appreciate the moments i had with them.

i dont know why i feel so down now

they got their own life, we got our own.

all of us arent that close anymore.

only for the girls.

hui and eric they both are always that close. ==

i hate the feeling so much.
seriously, i dont wanna lose anyone of them...

People, i miss those moments we had.

i dont know if next year will it still be the same....=(

hazell's down.

2009-08-31T15:27:00.000+08:00

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.

The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them

2009-08-30T14:41:00.003+08:00

28thAug09; Chingwen's surprise party. ;]

ChingWen, see how much we love you! ;]

planned whole week and everything went smoothly=]

thanks to Fang, WanChee,Hao,Dany,Phei and lastly Vanessa.

we bought Wen 2 shirts and something special hahaha* you know i know Wen.

Okayy.

On that day, Phei came over to my place as she got nothing to do and she was bored.

we talked for hours and went to my house and she online while i get myself prepared.

went to 7-11 bought batteries.

since its still early, we went to CES for awhile.

saw Fang, so asked her to tell others to meet up at CES and we go together.

everyone gathered at CES and Phei drove us all to Vann's place.

met up with Vann and went to her house for awhile since its a surprise party, i need to make it sounds more real xD

i told Chingwen that i need to go to class at 830pm, and she reached there like..830pm?? hahaha.

so i pretend that my dad called and i gtg, say bye bye to Vann's parents and off i go.

well, i purposely put my pen at Vann's room and ask Chingwen to bring down for me.

and i kept on phone her make her got nervous. and when she came down and saw Fang,WanChee,Phei,Hao and Dany, she was shocked and she hugged Dany and cried.

besides that, she shouted, IM GOING TO KILL YOU HAZELL!

hahaha, i lied to her for the whole week. I told her that my parents not home from friday to sunday. and i asked her to come over my place on saturday night.

hahaha, she cried. first time...

Dany went off after gave her a BIGG hug.

we played, we laught, we talked.

Dany came to meet us before we go. yahh and i walked back from Vann's house.

That Bad lil monster asked me to upload the pic to facebook so i did it and i slept at 2am somthing.

........................................................................................................................

29thAug09; Saturday night

ChingWen texted me in the early morning and i was still sleeping. HAHA i woke up at 1 something. all thanks to Wen! grrr*

Chingwen called up at 530pm and i went down to guard house to meet her.

on my way to guard house, i saw a girl that looked like Pying. XD well, its really her. i was surprised to see her. =]

walked to guard house to meet up with ChingWen and Phei.

later on, we went to somewhere near club house to have a sit and talk. =]

Chingwen treated us PizzaHut.

thanks darling! <3

later on we went to aerobic room to play.

weeee, we fooled around like crazy people.

Phei brought her new cam so we took video xD all of us like...MADDDD!

and took alot of pictures hahahaha.

after those stupid crazy things, we went back to my house and chilled in my room.

Stupid Wen wanted to online because of some stupid reasons xD

then, Vann and her boyf came and about 10 something Pying and Vann left.

so left me Phei and Chingwen in my room.

we talked till 1130pm Chingwen's mom called up and she got to go.

What a buzy holiday.

anyway, im glad to have you guys this bunch of friends. <3

another side, i hope next year WE all will still be the same.

huiMin knows what im talking about......=(

<3>

2009-08-28T15:22:00.002+08:00

28thAug09; Its friday

Holiday is almost finish. urgh left 3 more days to go. =(

after school reopen, im gonna work hard for my studies as last semester is in Nov.

well, this hols is aint that boring but its a C-O-L-D hols.

it rains since last week? and its been raining for the whole week! urghhh.

i wanted to go to somewhere else. but the rain..

urghhhhh.

i started to feel tired of it. grrrrrr. i hate schooling!

and theres so many things waiting me to do.

like interact club, the school magazine thingy everythinggg!

grrrrr*

will stop here as im lazy to type.

<3>

2009-08-26T19:04:00.004+08:00

26thAug09; as boring as usual

i was so depressed yesterday. well, something made me thought of him.

Hmmm was looking back to the photos that have taken during the parties that were held in my house. those friends....those laughters....will it be the same next year?

im so worried that it will be not the same anymore.

sighhhhhh.

do friends come and go?

i dont wanna lose them. not even one of them but yeah, im losing them.

okay fine. im being weird again.

grrr, lets talk about my holiday. well, one week hols its kinda bored. as usual. i dont like hols but i like this hols. ;]

wanna know why? i skipped bm tuition already for one whole month and yahhh. i wanted to changed my bm tuition. i wanna be with Chingwen. =]

accompany her sambil belajar;]

and monday, first time mom let my friend drive me to somewhere. =D

thanks Phei ;]

Phei fetched me at one something. and we both argued among each and another because i was telling her 'this' and she thought 'that'. and when she told me 'this' i thought of 'that'.

pekchek right?

when i saw her car coming. i was like phew finally she found my house.

well, she told me that she was somewhere near my house and she didnt saw me. oh well.

argue like for 5 mins then we finally shut ourselves up. =]

On the way to Queens, we had this conversation.

Hazell;Phei

Arent you afraid that i drive you to somewhere?

no? cause i trust you *giggles*

*laugh*i kena accident once you know

*freaked out* omg!

*laugh* no lahhh. you know malls right..the carpark there? when im looking for parking. yeahh~

*phew*

And then, we reached Queens SAFELY!

she took the parking ticket and suddenly shouted HAZELL HOLD HAZELL HOLD!

i terkejut and i dont know what's going on.

she stepped on the brake so hard that i almost flew out of the window. ==

found a carpark and poof* shopping here i come!

firstly we went to get something then later on walked around.

planned to go visit Wen, but she need to go to tuition dy so, plan changed.

she drove me back home and we spend like few hours doing something yahhhh and i walked to her car and kapsiao for 1 hour? and off back home. hahaha thats my monday man! goshhh

while we're looking for something we both like so crazy.. we went to Nichii, here and there. even in PizzaHut we also can make jokes out of something.

its so silly.

then. todayy, wanted to go to Wen's house after eg2 class. but rains heavily so plan cancel AGAIN. grrrrrr. so pekchek.

and yahhh. my hols kinda fun. =] every morning woke up, once i open my eyes first thing i do is pick my house phone and dial Wen's house phone and talk like for 1 hour or more. then close the phone next... Phei XD

uh huhhhh!

so maybe tmrw going to visit Wen since so long i didnt see her dy. so yahhh XD

Trying to Be Nice to everyone now ;]

2009-08-23T10:32:00.002+08:00

22nd Aug 09; First day of hols.

Friday was the last day of school, and the hols had just started.

i can actually feel the boredom.

Felt pressure before exam and even after exam. gosh.

Monday im going out wtith my couz ;]

weeeeeeeee

there's nothing special happen in my life recently and its boringg.

Vann went to Cameron and she left me alone for 3 days!!!

im rotten at homee.

urghhhhh.

recently my mood isnt good too.

easily got depressed and frustrated.

i dont wanna have add maths tuitionnnn! i just cant handle the pressure TT.

since i have nothing to do during hols, i will update my blog everyday. =]

was on phone with phei that evening and night.

we talked alot of crap through the night. gosh.

i was suppose to go to SGGS's installation but i woke up late so...i didnt make it...

Sorry BuggWen!

Hmmmmm, Wen's birthday is on 25th. any idea what to get her?

bikinis? er, lingeries?

wanna make her screams that dayyy. xD

next sat we're going to Vann's house to celebrate with Wen. =D

urghh, pcghs's installation crushed with my plannn! ahhhhh!

well, im so bored nowww!!!!!

cant wait till mondayyy!

<3>

2009-08-12T22:00:00.003+08:00

Went for photoshoot with Sam and Yunne during the weekend.

met up with Sam and Yunne at 3pm plus plus and we started to walk from Dewan Sri Pinang to Penang Road.

well, took quite some of pictures but not happy with it.

so...dad maybe gonna take me to UPR this sat. weee.

about 5 something, Darren fetched me Sam and Yunne to beach.

we play, we scream, we jump!

we had alot of fun.

then went to Gurneyy for dinner. ;]

after dinner, Darren dropped me and Yunne back home.

reached home about 9 something 10pm.

skipped school the next day due to my laziness and im ill. so yahh. xD

get my lazy ass back to school on tuesday and only me and wayshi went to school.

ee cheng and fze were absent like..for days? hope you guys recover soon!

and today went to school and everything as usual.

its boring without fze in class. although we play like crazy without her.

im sick and went to see doctor and he gave me two days of MC. so not going to school tomorrow.

sighhhhhh.

kinda down these few days. emo emo emo emo!

hope i can cheer myself up ;]

exam's just around the corner and i havent start my engine yet. =(

need to start studyin this sat.

i will update the pictures when i got the pendrive.

YUNNEEEE, PASS ME THE PENDRIVE BACK FAST!

GotToGo.

Cheer people, get well soon friends!

and yahh, people, take good care of yourself. its not a good time to sick now. ;]

<3>

2009-07-30T23:09:00.011+08:00

25thJuly09; a movie with Vann.

watched harry potter with Vann. and she overnight my place.

Wakeeee up sleepyhead

I ♥ you; IMY

www.ilove-everythinggg.blogspot.com

Okayy this is before hair cut

and this is after. WTF. TT

SAD MANNNN!

2009-07-27T22:46:00.010+08:00

27thJuly09;

OKAY TODAY's TOPIC.

LETS SEE THE PICTURES BELOW FIRST.

THE TOP ONE OBVIOUSLY ITS MINE!
THE BOTTOM ONE. OBVIOUSLY THAT BITCH COPIED ME! FUCK YOU!
AND THEN, IT HAPPENED AGAIN!
BOTTOM ITS MINEEEE

AND THIS ONE HERE IS HERS.

i cant say its the same cause you've edit it. but if without edit it? will it be the same? 100% copied MINE idea and 70% similarity! anddddddddddddddddddddd. no one wants to copy YOUR NICEEEE COPIED pic lahh weh. CELENE's PHOTOGRAPHY? HAhhhhh. its copyrighted right? if youre scared people copy ur pic or whatever DONT COPY PEOPLE's then PEOPLE WONT COPY YOURS! you cant get the same as mine is because you dont have a cam like mine! DUHHHHH. FUCK YOU SLUT!

..........................................................................................................................................
Hahhhhh. obviously you copied me. cant believe that youre such a slut and i feel so sad that youre not a creative slut at all. gosh. complaining to me bout what kind of people you mix with? hahhhhhhhhhhh. dont forget youre mixing with them. and yea, you said you hate tukaos and lala and COPYCATS?! you're one of them. obviously youre one of them cause you MIX with themmm. what a slut. do you mind to get your own lifeeee bitch? hahh and dont act friendly in front of me. you and your cute lil rich boyf are the same. tsk tsk tsk what a nice couple . and yeah. im so sad that yo dont have your own personality! you cherbye! im trying not to be rude to you. but i just cant stand the way you act. tsk. now i believe why ppl said chchs girls are such a slut. and IM NOT PROUD to be in that school. hahhhh.

GET YOUR OWN LIFE SLUTTTTTTTTTTTTT

2009-07-24T19:11:00.003+08:00

24th July 09;

I think i saw him this morning when im on my way to school.

sigh.i hope that was him.

but i guess it isnt him. Hmmmm.

time flies, and things had happened almost a year ago. time really passes by real fast. and im turning 17 in few more months. and im gonna get my driving license soon too. =D

oooo. i likey that part. but what i dont like is SPM's coming too.=(

Urgh, after SPM i will be leaving secondary school and im going for college. new friends again. sigh.

i will miss the secondary school life man.

goshh. exam's coming soon mann. i need to get my engine starts before its too late.

hazell, you can do it!

well, im kinda pissed off today. im so pekchek in school and when i got back home mom's turn to make me pekchekkkk. urgh.

i guess i should stop here for now. =D

P/s: i hate you August!

<3>

2009-07-22T22:08:00.012+08:00

Hope ya dont mind the pictures kinda mixed up.

July13th. 5.30am? on my way to Changi Airport. that taxi we took was Mercedes. ==

and it costs $53. so it was like rm100+ XD

After we went to sentosa, we reached hotel at 11pm+.

parents and sis were slept in the other room while me and my couz sis camwhore in our room. LOL and watched MV using dad's iPhone.=]

im kinda hungry so texted my cousin bro to fetch us out for supper.

we waited him till 2am and he said he had reached the lobby.

so me and my couz sis got changed and went down.

he drove us to Geylang to have Frog Porrige.

ive tried the drink and the frog meat that night. LOL.
the picture above was taken errr at 2.30am?

Inside the Taxi. Singapore used meter dy and msia still NOT using meter. tsk tsk tsk

Posing with the Guess's model. XD

After we took the Singapore's Flyers*point below*

KapNiu. xD

Me and my couzz

2009-07-21T22:47:00.031+08:00

TO BE CONTINUE
After we took the Spore's Flyer

Rubiks

Cousin Sis and Me

WEEEEE, im the photographer!

hahhh, nothing to do on top of the flyer.

AHHH!!!!!!!!!

Me, sis and bro

We're going up up up

here it comesbro me sis

i likey the background!

While waiting for dad to get the tickets

Singapore flyer. was build during last year i guess. and it was 30 stories high. O.o

you can see almost whole singapore mannnn. and beside the flyer, new casino's building.

Clinic. its a pub. Hmmm. i suppose to follow my cousins to go that night but sadly my leg sakit d.so i cant make it =(

Clarke Quay

*points Below*

Sentosa.

Oscar.

Sentosa. the fake one

*points below*

Underwater World

2009-07-21T21:23:00.020+08:00

Got abit mixed up. hope ya dont mind. cause im lazy to rearrage it.

forgotten the mall's name.

The carrot cake

Chocolate Shoppp. know what? ODM got made limited and special edition watch for this shop.

its a chocolate bar watch. LOL

THE SPERM BANK! nolahh just joking XD

Spore's Hokkien Meee

In penang's airport.

In spore's airport

2009-07-15T23:19:00.015+08:00

SPORE's TRIP part ONE. lol
Let the pictures do the talking. Im sick and im sleepy now.
will continue the nxt part tmrw.

Penang's airport

Theplane.

*points below*

Bugis Junction if not mistaken

SEX report card. who need this?

Yummayy

The shoes that ive bought. $35

2009-07-14T23:21:00.002+08:00

14th July09;

Firstly, i wanted to wish Josh, Happy Belated Birthday.

lol ive wished him before his birthday.

just feel like wishing him again in my blog. so yeahh. LOL

secondly, im sorry that im lazy to blog recently. Promise will update my blog more often

thirdly, ive hurted my leg. and its hurts. fuck.

fourthly, YUNNE you boh wa eh simmmm, HOW SAD!

lastly, night people.

2009-07-13T21:48:00.004+08:00

2009-07-13T06:12:00.002+08:00

July 13th,
currently im at Changi Airport. =D
yeahhhh, online here. guess what, i saw a minor character in the movie of ping pang yuan. LOL
so damn funny! gosh, now we're waiting for the time to come.
LOL penang hereeee i comeee!!!!!
i will reach penang bout 8.30am. geeez, its nice to be home
Hokkien Mee! im backkk to eat ya!
hmmm, lets make it a short post.
how was my trip? lol its fun and tiring.
hahaha. went to have a errr, supper in the morning 2am with my couz and had a one hour sleep and here i am LOL blogging in airport.

will update bout my trip once im back home!

2009-07-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

Today's going to be a short post.
today was my account teacher's last day in school. =( kinda sad.
and i didnt stay back for practice cause im kinda lazy for it.
thennn, Vann texted me asked if im free later she's comin over with Chingwen! =D
i will be away for 3 days. will be back on monday
Chaos darls!

P/s: Hui, Jo, Chingwen, Vann, Bro, etcetcetc. i will miss you guyssss! <3
anddddd, Happy 17th Birthday to E the Jerk and Happy 18th Birthday to K the ass. =]
<3>

2009-07-09T19:24:00.002+08:00

its been almost a year things happened.

why cant i get over you??

grrr, you're just a jerk to me right? right? TELL ME RIGHT!

things happened for months. but why why why i still can get over you?

sometimes i just hate myself.

why i cant walk out of my past? well, its my past right?

every move you had made, every breathe you take, it hurts the bottom of my heart deeply.

ive tried my best to forget about you but why? why i cant get over you?!

ive cried for you for months and why i couldnt stop my tears from dropping?

everytime i close my eyes, what i can see is you.

your sweet smile, your hugs, everything are still so fresh in my mind.

things just like happened yesterday.

i cant accept the fact that you've left me.

My Dear, please tell me what to do...ive lost my direction....

2009-07-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

060709; Anthony's Birthday. and its been a year.

Went to school as usual, i was so happy sleepy and sad at the same time.

uh huhh, i guess you guys will be asking me why right.

its been a year since 060708. Hmmmm. yeah. i know you know. LOL

so reached school and gave the card to Anthony.

i wrote quite loadsa craps inside there. well, hope he likes it.

we sang birthday song for him and he was shy!

lol, we wished him and yeah...

me, anthony, yi and fze were so crazy for the whole day.

well, whenever im too sleepy i will be like so crazy.

i dont know why they were so crazy today.

after school, walked to yi's house for a changed and Anthony's sis, Anne fetched us down to MacD. =D

THANKS ANNE!

wooots*

after she dropped us she went off with her friend.

we got a longgg table and Anthony kept on asking me if i did ask Kenny them to come or not.

i kept on denied. hahahaha.

GeeMok got him a small cake and we asked him to blew the candle off and bite the candel from the cake. and swooshhhh. pushed his head towards the cake! woots.

CREAM ALL OVER HIS FACE!

later on kapsiao kapsiao then mom fetched me back at 3.30. =]

Were happy today and i hope you had a great and unforgetable 16 birthday Anthony.

Once again, Happy Birthday! =]

2009-06-28T00:34:00.000+08:00

Next Event : photoshooting!!!!! July 4th!

2009-06-27T18:37:00.023+08:00

27thJune09; School Replacement and Celebrating the SO late's teachers' Day.

Woke up and get things prepared as usual, reached school with a vryy good mood.

we're having partyyy, who will feel moody huh.

so, went to my class and put the fruits on the table and talked with F.

went to T2 to have a talk with EeCheng and that Lil hiao chabor.

later on saw my bro walking up, shouted his name, he passed me his lappy!

that's his second wife mannn! and he passed it to me! bwahaha.

i carried his lappy up to my class and on his wifeyy. damn. its niceeee. haha.

but sadly, i cant BOOOMM down the building cause he didnt brought speakers.

phoned SotongVan, but he's still sleeping. so we ended up, keep his lappy and sat down kapsiao.

we talked alot. =]

Camera shy? or....
btw, thats my bffs. anthony and Fze

My everyday-talked-to-me-and-i-will-feel-bored-when-she's-not-around's friend.

Fze, Lil hiao chabor and Eecheng

Fze and the chubby wayshi=]

After took few pictures, went back to class eat.

kapsiao with bro again. duhhhh

his retart face. LOL

Okayy, from left, bro, an unknown and my form teacher.

well, my teacher taught bro for 2 years and she still can regonise him. LOL

My favourite English teacher. =D

and thissssss! HAHAHA, first pic with broo. i looked like am chio. == yess i am.

broo, i wanted to tell you, no matter where you are, you will always be my best bro!

later on, Pizza's here.

we chia bro ate one piece. HAHA and we got 16 pieces.

The Pizza Kid.

and, the syok sendiri's KENNY CHOONG! woooots

see how retarted he is. =D

and he's hiao

its almost time to go to the hall for performance, so cleaning time!

they cleaned the classroom while i stand a side and keep on taking pictures.

what to do, i will mess up everything if i went to give a hand right? =D

*im good*

Fze got prepared for her performance. =D

XinYing,Wayshi,Fze,Me. I love this picccc man! =D

PoYee and Beixian behind the masks.

My dearly =]

and its breakdance time!!!!!!

among all pictures i got, this is the best. =D

why, cause he is so cool and so entao. HAHAH!!

After F's performance.

we just love each others! =D

everything ended at 12.40!
its tired but still i likeyyyy todayyy! ♥♥♥♥♥

Another day has gone,
no matter what, our life must carry on. ♥

2009-06-24T21:08:00.017+08:00

Continue IU day's post. =]

2009-06-22T21:52:00.008+08:00

20thJune09; Interact IU day.

Slept till 8 in the morning, woke up then got things prepared and went to have breakfast and took my sis's report card.

later on, went to YMCA ! =]

forgotten to take a pic with my BFFs. =(

21stJune09; I spend few hours with my beloved BUG. =]

Had my add maths tuition in the afternoon.

and chingy phoned me for so many times. sorry girl. lol.

she came over at 3 and we gossip inside my room. =]

later on changed and got prepared for the chinese orchestra's concert at night.

so i changed and we took some pictures. =P

ILY, BuGGie Wen!

Miss out myself. haha

=]

and tadaaaa, i didnt took much picture that night.

I thought i can forget you.

but, now i only notice that i cant.

you're still in my mind.

cant you feel tired of running in my mind?

after 311 days and you're still running in my mind.

i still do miss you.

2009-06-18T22:31:00.016+08:00

Trip to Genting.

on 11th June, i didnt sleep whole night and i went to take my bath when its 4.30am.

got prepared and ready to took off to genting.!

On my way, dad's car broke down in the middle of the highway. gosh gerli ka si!

later on dad phoned the the toll for help.

they came and bring our car to fix.

we waited at the workshop for freaking 9 hours.

after the car have done, we went to genting and that time was like 6 smtg?

when we reached batang kali there, it was 7 smtg dy. its so dark that u cant even see the trees beside you. all you can see is the reflector on the ground.

i was so scareddddddd!

but we reached there at 8 smtg.

2nd Day, woke up early morning got prepared and got the wrist band for indoors.

I sat this once and i was like screaming like hell!

and there's a Vietnam's dont know what it is. they sell all vietnam things.

see below? the girl was trying to put coloured sand into the glass. Hmmm, can you guess what's she's trying to do?

She's doing picture with sand! *point below*

COOL HUH???

I planned to get Hui one cause her birthday is on july but iv forgotten to ask the price. sorry darling.

Later on went to baskin for ice creams.

While my dad companied my sis to play, me and my mom met up with my aunts there.

about 5pm we went down by CABLE CAR!

you know what? i got height's fobia or whtever it is called.

im afraid of height.

and guess what, its my first time i open my eyes when i was in cable car.

END!

the next day, went to school as usual and im fucking sleepy and i slept in class twice.

deep sleep that kind. LOL

!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-06-17T15:37:00.002+08:00

Why i love Photography?

i can capture my everyday's life, things that happened around me, people, mother nature...etc...

Why?

Cause i wanted to appreciated everything i had, i wanna capture it and keep it as a memories. Cause i know, once time passes, its pass. it wont come back for me anymore.

What's my ambition?

I wanted to be a famous photographer. a everyone-knows photographer.

Did photography brings you memories?

yea, it reminds me of someone special that had left me months ago. He is someone who loves photography too. i tried to take photos as much as i can cause i wanna share with him. but, i guess i dont have the chance to share with him anymore.....

Hazell's Moody!

2009-06-13T05:49:00.001+08:00

Im Away to Genting. Will be back on sunday. ♥♥♥♥♥

2009-06-09T22:46:00.002+08:00

090609; Tuesday

Well, this is the pic that i like the most but sadly cant see what ive writen on the sand. =( but still likeyy it so much! =D

feel dizzy when i woke up this morning until now. wtf.

why? why? why?

cause i slept at 4am yday and woke up at 12 today. its kinda late but not enough sleep for me.

grrrr.

tmrw need to wake up early in the morning cause i need to go to school for practice. gosh. fuck weh. im so fucking lazy.

and tmrw night i still need to attend tuition class.

ahhhhh! my mid year hols sucks.

last year mid year hols is much fun than this year.

me yang and hui met up almost everyday in a week. goshhhhhhh.

miss that time.

this year, 3 of us didnt even meet up once. =(

all of us got our own things to busy about. sighhhh. how sad.

i guess i need to stop here. cause im feeling real dizzy now.

toodles!

2009-06-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

My favourite pic of all. =]

and this is my 101 post!

2009-06-08T21:17:00.015+08:00

070609; Beach

Tadaaa, these are those pictures ive taken yesterday at the beach.

Enjoy!

2009-06-08T00:09:00.018+08:00

070609; PhotoShoots!

Woke up and get everything prepared cause dad's taking us to kek lok si! =D

on my way, i dont feel so well. gosh but ended up alright.

on my way up to kek lok si, due to the time, theres no one there yet. LOL.

we walked up from the coffeeshop till the top.

message from people to god.

Light up the candles, may God bless you all.

i only uploaded few, cause im lazy of waiting it.

2 hours later, we walked down to have out brunch.

on my way down, i saw alot of lalas and tukaos.

eww. gross.

had my brunch at the coffeeshop there and planned to go to Penang Hill.

but when we reached there, there's full of buses and tourist.

so dad said lets go home.

we went back home and took a nap.

after our nap, we get prepared and we went to Batu Ferringhi's beach. =]

Will update bout the photoshooting at beach tomorrow. =]

2009-06-06T20:57:00.014+08:00

THURSDAY ; 040609.

Woke up in the farking early morning and get prepared and went to school for stupid practice.

FRIDAY;050609

Woke up in the early morning went to school for the clay thingy. LOL

and tadaaaaaaaaa, this is what i did. =P BUNNYYYY!

Later on, HE fetched me back home at 10.40am.

i reached home took my bath ate my lunch and went to school for practice AGAIN.

060609; Outing

I slept at 2am yesterday and woke up at 8 today.

LOL im kinda late.

ive forgotten that ive asked a friend that i didnt meet her for years, Shin out for photoshoots.

she reached first. and waited me bout half and hour or maybe more.

SORRY WEH.

reached text her and met her up.

we started to walked around in botanical garden. LOL

its fun, we talked bout school, life, girlf, bitches, everything that we can talk about.

boh huat. too long didnt meet up dy.

hmmmm,then we walked here and there and we went in to the pesta bunga.

we took alot of pictures of flowers. haha.

After that, dad brought me and my family to have breakfast somewhere near new world park.

later on, dad went to buy some plants.

End. =D.

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2009-06-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

Shut your eyes and walk towards your future.

Dont look back,

there's nothing for you to keep in your mind.

2009-06-03T17:59:00.002+08:00

3rdJune09; 3rd day of holiday.

Recently, i cant really control my emotional. =(

urghh, i hate holidays.

i know you guys will urghhh, crazy who hates holidays.

i sit in front of the pc whole day doing nothing. gosh its boring.

i cant hangout that's why im bored. sighhhh.

my holidays was filled with practice and tuition. FUCK!

i wanna hangouttttt!

T.T

there's a pesta bunga going on in botanical garden and 7th June is the last day!!!

wtf!

maybe dad gonna take me there this sat or sun for photoshooting! yayyyy!

well, time passes by fast huh. today is the 3rd day of hols.

im going to meet the interactors again this coming monday! =D

i wanna go to the photography's class! TT

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2009-06-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

01June09; Interact Meeting

Yesterday Hui told me that theres a meeting with all interact members today.

so woke up at 8am this morning, asked my mom for permission and she said yes!

fetched Hui at 9.45 and weee, went to greenlane Mcd. =] HAHA .

we had alot of fun.

crap for 2 hours and mom fetched me to tesco and islee then off to dental. =(

i bought a shirt. =]

reached home in the evening, took a nap and here i am. blogging. LOL

i wanna attend the photogrphy class but...parents dont allow me too! FUCK!

why cant i just do things that i like?! huh huh huh?!

its part of hobby i know, learning erhu is also part of hobby,

obviously i like photography more than orchestra right?!

wtf?!

i wish im rich and i can drive.

so i dont have to depends on parents anymore. GOSHHHH!

life sucks man!

and I WANNA HANGOUTTTTTTTTTTT! cb!

FUCKING moodyyy!

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tagged by my sayang; S

2009-05-31T18:03:00.002+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?The Neckk!

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?Tired

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ? My bff, miss Shortayy

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled? wonttt.

5. Will you ever donate blood ?noooo, im so scared of blood

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?Yessss!

7. Do you want someone to be dead ? er no i guess, although i hope those bitches dissapear from this world.

8. What does your last text message say ?ok, Welcome. =]

9. What are you thinking right now? Can't wait till this wednesdayy. i mau tengok dia. =P

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ? yeah

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?11.45pm. LOL

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?forgotten.

13. Is someone on your mind right now ? Of course

14. Who was the last person who text you ?Shin

FIVE Lucky Person to do this quiz...
1. Hui
2. ShzeC
3. Wendy
4. MH
5. Yunne

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?Mr.W

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ?Female.

17. If no.5 and no.1 get together , would it be a good? impossible.

18. What is no.1 studying about ? idk?

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ? some just now, some few days ago.

20.Is no.4 single ? nope

21. Say something about no.2. She's my favourite couz

22. What do you think about no.2 & no.3 being together ?no way, they both are taken

23. Describe no.5 . not tall, not short, skinny and crazy

24. What will you do if no.3 and no.4 fight ?slapp them! hahah

25. Do you like no. 1? For sure, she's my bff!

2009-05-30T01:47:00.002+08:00

29thMay09; FINALLY, its over.

after suffering from 2 weeks exam, finally we got till the end.

we spend alot of time talking since yesterday and today, yeah, even more.

after school i need to stay back for orchestra's practice. grrrrr.

need to deal with some bitches. kinda bored.

later on mom fetched me to islee then down to sg nibong to fetch my sis.

stayed at home. dad's home ate curry mee.

played with my pup.

and when i wanna take its ball, i wanna take the ball and she wanna take the ball too

so mine hand pooked into her teeth. errr

into my middle finger nail.

and my finger swallon like ass man, gosh and it hurts alot.

dad took me to the clinic for injection.i guess it had bcm back to the shape it suppose to be.

didnt able to take a pic. xD

Hmmmmm. i guess i shall stop here.

Happy Holidays and Enjoy your holidays!

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2009-05-25T23:46:00.002+08:00

25thMay09; What a day

i felt so tired last night and im almost late for school today.

reached school and had a talk with the bffs and yeah started my day with pmoral paper.

my fingers almost break.==

HORROR begun after recesssssss!

*thunderrrr + lightninggg*

english paper one!!!

me and anthony freaked out when we saw ARTICLE!

we were discussing bout articles before the paper was distrubuted.

and the 1st page of the paper is article! wtf!

SUEY arrr!

section B, there got 4 or 5 questions but we only need to choose one.

i wrote " describe an intersting person in your life".

Guess who i wrote people.

my beloved bro!

but luckily my teacher doesnt know him. haha.

i hope it will b a good essay. i mean....i hope i can score flying colours in my examinations.

PRAY HARD.

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2009-05-25T23:41:00.001+08:00

HAZELL's DYING!

2009-05-24T20:19:00.002+08:00

24thMay09; Sunday

Woke up late today, kinda tired.

gosh. my exam still got a week more to go.

and im suffering. grrrr.

tomorrow i need to face the biggest pressure! english paperrrr!!!!

im so sleeeeeeepy nowwwww. and yet i still cant get to bed, cause i havent study my pmoral yet.

a week more to go and yayyyyy im freee!

sighhhhh. im so lazy to do everything now. even blogging. sighh

so i guess i will stop here. =]

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2009-05-24T02:02:00.003+08:00

23thMay09; FREEEEEE

started my day with a bowl of yummy hokkien mee.

then get ready to take Hikki down town for grooming then went to queens for a walk and dropped dad home and mom fetched me to tuition.

during tuition, we had alot of fun. lol.

after tuition, went down to gurney for dinner.

reached home at 9 something. and i like the new tv tht daddy bought. lol.

later on on webcam with E until now.

LOL

=] =) =P =D ;D ;p ;) x) xD xP x]

HOLS'SCOMING

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2009-05-20T22:21:00.002+08:00

20thMay09; -

slept late last night and i cant get up early today and i felt so sleepy on my way to school.

today's paper. english and sivik.

duhhh, i didnt even touch sivik's book since the beginning of the year.

oh well, i brought to school ONLY few times. ahaha

kinda moody these few days,i dont know whyy.

i dont know what he's in his mind.

i admit, i cant read his mind.

i guess i dont know him that much yet.

sighh.

i knew there's a distance between us.

you've gone further and futher than i expected.

maybe someday, i cant get to see you again. maybe you will just...dissapear....

well, things change right? uh huhhh. yeahhh.

" i trust no one but only myself, cause others will leave me someday."

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2009-05-20T18:46:00.002+08:00

一切都已经过去了。

我已经看不清楚我们的回忆了。
我什么都看不到。
你的脸，你的笑容，一切都模糊了。。。。
我只听见你模糊的钢琴声。
摸着你那模糊的脸，想着那模糊的回忆，躺在那冷冰冰的怀里。
一切都过去了，我很希望我能走出回忆里，可是，我办不到。

Group Study.

2009-05-17T23:00:00.011+08:00

17thMay09; Group Study.

Let's let the pictures do the talking. im so lazy to type and tmrw i got exam.. and im still here blogging. grrrr.

okay. met my buddies in Bayan Baru's Old Town. had our lunch there and started to do revision.

till 3 something, we changed to Secret Recipe.

when clock strikes 6, we went to sunshine square for a walk and we went to mcd for dinner. thanks all for today. im so fucking lazy to blog these few days

and woohoo, SOMEONE's coming backkkkk!

He's teaching her account and i have nothing to do. so..*evil grins*
Zhi

Gan

Zyi.

BFF <3

MacDonald

END!

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2009-05-15T20:21:00.004+08:00

imagine how i hate you, lalamuiixxxx.

You act like you know everything huh. you said forever 21 is a pasar malam's clothes. can u effort a thing from forever21? no? Hmmmm, you act like you can buy the whole shop down but you went to pasar malam to buy clothes and act like its vry expansive? duhhhhh.

and your purse? you thought yours is the best in the whole world? duhh. come on lah.

oh and please please please please can you pleaseeeee dont be so fake? you're so fake and you didnt notice that you're making it so obvious. Stupid oh, and you thought everyone in your class likes you? pleaseeee lahhhhh. they're just acting in front of you and just being FAKE. they treated you like how you treat people. Oh and where's your DSLR? i still remember that you asked your mom to get you one and you still rmb what you answer me? you said she will get me REAL SOON. ahahahahahahahahah. oiii you said that errrr, 7 months dy? and where is your dslr? i will see what car will your mom gets you. you told me that your mom wanna get you a mini cooper. still rmb that? and you said its only 80k for a NEW minicooper!!!! OMG!dont be so nonsense lahh. hahahahaha. you made me laughh stupid.dont be so fake, bitch. you treat people in that way and people will treat you like how you treat them. what goes around comes around.

2009-05-15T17:30:00.002+08:00

15thMay09; First Day

First day of exam.

everything went quite well.

oh ya, today add maths paper. fuck fuck fuck.

im so scared that i can get better marks than 1st semester bo. =(

well, sunday im going to hangout with friends.

no laaa. xD group study.

I STUDY! woohoo.

okay. im quite pissed off these few days. grrrrrrrrrr.

for god sake.

i enjoy this exam so much and i dont know why.

maybe i know how to do account?

and account is so niceee.

hahaha. this time mid year exam, 60 marks for account's document. wtf?!

urghh. need to score documents.

tmrw having 2 tuition classes.

after BM get home makan then account tuition.

then night maybe gonna bake cupcakes?

urghhhh. im so lazy to blog nowww. like nothing to talk about but i will update it make it alive. =]

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2009-05-12T23:27:00.003+08:00

12th May 09; SUEY AR.

Yesterday after recess was called down to met the disclipine teacher.

i was like huh? whts going on here?

and Sir told me that someone spreading rumours by sms bout me.

and i know nothing bout it.

terkejut kayhh.

went back to class and i cried and screamed.

i thought it was me. was moody for the whole day and was very very tired cause ive cried in school and before bed i cried again. wtf right?

today, went to to find sir and he told me that that im not related to the sms but im involved in the case.

and he suspected that i was the one who did those.

PLEASE larhhhh. how could can be me??

my chinese is aint that good and im not that mouliuuu.

i got headache since yday till now and i still can feel the pain.

its like my brain's turning inside my head.

it wanna expand but theres not more space for it to expand.

gosh. worst day ever wehhh.

i will rmb the date. ==

11th may 09. MH's birthday. also my unlucky day.

this is the 2nd time i got involved in cases but at the end its not related to me.

well, this case havent got till the end.

this is the reason why i cant even trust anyone.

not even my friends. not even my bffs.

i only trust in myself. ONLY myself.

no matter who they are they will still betray you someday, especially friends.

the most important thing is to trust ourself MORE than others.

if we get into trouble, we cant blame anyone.

i've tired of those things now. and exam is cominggggg!

had my add maths tuition yesterday and i just had my account's tuition.

its so freaking tired. i hope i can stop all this for one week? or maybe 2?

i dont feel wanna go to school you know?

i wanna stay with hui, jo, chingwen, vann, shinling, shinyin, bro. etc etc etc

whole day long spending with them is much fun then spending in the school.

i dont feel like wanna continue studying in the school.

i wanna change school mummy!

i dont wanna study in this kind of school anymoreeee!

daddy, can you please change school for me?

i dont like my school.

i dont wanna study under this kind of situation.

Daddy, i dont wanna get into trouble againnnnn.!

Can i change my school, daddy?TT

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2009-05-10T14:04:00.001+08:00

IM SORRY, J!

2009-05-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

1.My Name : Hazell
2.My Birthday : 30thMarch
3.Who tagged you : MH
4.Name 5 best friends : Hui, Jo, Sl, Mcdkid, Y, F
5.What do you wished for birthday : c905
6.Happy things that happened recently : er? skipped 3 lessons and had my recess with only 12 of 4t1 students?
7.Most stressed about recently : EXAM's coming! fuck
8.What is your dream about future : Be a famous photographer?
9.Do you have someone you like : Yes.i guess
10.Will visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : yeah, why not
11.Most happy to hang out with : Bff
12.If two of your friends were having conflicts : give em' both a slap.
13.Where is preferably the place to go with your lover : BEACH!
14.What to do in Christmas : either spend with my bff or my beloved
15.Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : Bff and beloved
16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : on my aircond and continue sleeping?
17.How many siblings do you have : 1
18.Favourite song(Female) : TaylorSwift( current favourite)
19.Favourite song(Male) : DAVID ARCHULETAAA
20.Favourite Colour : black, white and red
21.Flush before using the toilets? : no?
22.Love me not? : who the hell are you??
23.Affectionate to guys or girls : errrrr.
24.What do you wants to shout out loudly : FUCK YOU BITCH!
25.Do you dare to go toilets alone in the middle of the night? : yeahh?
26.Will you take off your undies in while in the WC : er?
27.Who’s the bastard : FAKEYBITCH
28.What’s the current affection : idk
29.Sleeps uglily : huh?
30.Whats the time now : 12:54am
31.Do you hate the person who tagged you : Nop
32.Weight : -
33.Weather today : okay gua
34.Are you pregnant : NO! still a virgin. ==
35.What will you do if you win a lottery : quarter for parents, quarter for shopping, save the half into my account.
36.An activity that must be done while in the Uni -life : uni? university you mean? duh im still in secondaryyy. i didnt even finish my secondary yet. duhhhhhhhhhhh

IM FUCKING BORED

2009-05-09T00:24:00.002+08:00

08thMay09; Friday

went to school as usual, went to essay competition and yeah its fun. LOL skipped 3 lessons for essay competition and 2 lessons for ceramah.

F was absent to school today and i was fucking bored in school.

and yeah skipped practice too.

i felt so great that i no need to face that FAKEY BITCH. =]

and yayyyy! couz's back from NS! wooots*

fetch me to malls after my exam wehh!

from tmrw onwards i will be REAL bz with tuition classes. goshhhhhhh

Saturday; BM, Sunday;add maths, Monday; addmaths AGAIN, Tuesday; account, Wednesday; EG2. Thursday; Int Conversation, Friday; EXAMMMMMMMMMMMM and Int writing.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. HELPPPPPPPPP!

can someone help me please?

i just need some air to breath

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